Sometimes I dont feel real. I dont feel like a person. It…

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Posted by: beauty_through_ana Original: 3/3/2004 1:50 AM Views: 21 Comments: 18 eProps: 36 Read Comments Post a Comment Back to Your Xanga Site

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Wednesday, March 03, 2004

Sometimes I dont feel real. I dont feel like a person. It makes me want to plunge my hand into my chest and see if my heart is still beating. To see the blood flow to make sure I'm full of life.

I cant believe my body is alive. I dont deserve it. I dont deserve to breathe. Or maybe its just that I hate the part that hates me. And If I do, I hate that part so much, I'd kill the part I love just to get rid of it.

I'd do anything to get ahead. Would you?

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awww sweetie, i know how you feel, sometimes i get that way, where you dont understand how you can still be awake.. ya know? for me, i get to where i feel like a jumble of tears and pills... i hope you feel better, and thanks for the comments on my site, i appreciate it very very much!!!

Posted 3/3/2004 8:48 AM by AchingForFreedom - reply

I know how you feel, I'm weird like that. I'll do just about anything to get ahead, even when it means hurting myself for it. It sucks ^^. Hope you feel better

Posted 3/3/2004 11:40 AM by monkeyJ - reply

Some days are worse than other days. Stay strong, tomorrow is tomorrow, another day. You have things more under control than you think.

Posted 3/3/2004 1:47 PM by hanaleiway

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Heyy.. i know exactly how you feel, and the important thing now is to not let go. everything'll bet better eventually. if you ever need anything just ask. i'll be here.

<3 Halley

Posted 3/3/2004 2:48 PM by xbabys_breathx - reply

i love you....i miss you get on the internet! I know how you feel....smack me hun ive been doin so bad on ana, shes dieing ::tear::

xXleacatXx

Posted 3/3/2004 8:37 PM by WorthlessTearsxX - reply

Just be yourself and accept who you are.

Posted 3/4/2004 10:11 AM by dixmind - reply

yea u r right...fds will be fds..n' they shouldn't say those bad words to me...sigh*..

o yea..i like my background too.thts the university of hong kong...my goal study place*...

gd luck n' take care

phoebe

Posted 3/4/2004 11:22 AM by phoebesnoopy - reply

i know how it is. but dont let go!

best wishes *hugs* xxx

Posted 3/4/2004 11:44 AM by ana_rchy - reply

hang in there..i know how you feel :)

Posted 3/4/2004 11:57 AM by bby_chrissy - reply

hun, i get that way too. just dont let it get to you, beat that feeling to the ground. luv ya gurl! <3xoxo

Posted 3/4/2004 6:59 PM by becomingana - reply

i know what you mean about feeling like you dont deseve to be alive- i feel like it a lot- i think a lot of people feel this way- so you're not alone, if it helps, and any of us are here if you needa talk.

Posted 3/6/2004 9:13 AM by NightmareCatcher - reply

aww its okay everyone feels that way once in a while.. it'll get better

Posted 3/6/2004 9:40 AM by sexygurl2b06 - reply

Hang in there and keep your head up!!!

Posted 3/6/2004 4:49 PM by I_Will_BE_THiN - reply

Visit its_a_beautiful_letdown's Xanga Site!

i know what you mean...hang in there girl.

Posted 3/6/2004 5:11 PM by its_a_beautiful_letdown - reply

im not going to say its ohk.. caz its obviously not.. and im not going to say i know how you feel.. bcaz seems like thats all the advice ure getting.. and sometimes it feels better to hang your head. but were with you and here to talk if you need us. were great resources

much love and stay strong.. -amethy

Posted 3/6/2004 5:44 PM by bizzydbabe157 - reply

aww don't feel like that. be strong, woman!! :) one day, everything's gonna be all right. :)

-angie

Posted 3/6/2004 10:08 PM by GW100 - reply

Sorry you're feeling this way. I know what you mean though. Stay tough, you'll feel "real" again and know you're alive without wanting to pull your heart out. I know what you mean about hating yourself, it's like you can get away from other people that bug you but you can't ever get away from yourself and all the negative things you say or think to yourself. That sounds strange but I don't know a better way to write it.

Take Care,

Queenie

Posted 3/7/2004 2:17 AM by QueenObese - reply

i know exactly how you feel. i go through that every morning when i wake up to face another fatty day... but you have got to hang in there.. we all do!

tc!

Posted 3/18/2004 8:08 AM by jmtca - reply

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