| Wow. I wish I had kept up with this. I've hit an all time low in my dieting. Ive reached the dreadful 180. What the hell was I thinking???? Ahh. I don't think i can ever do this. I can't ever do what I need to do to keep myself at the weight I want to be at. I have no self control. I see food and I eat. Theres nothing holding me back. I need more self control. I wish I had it. Well, I have to go and mope around, which I wish I didn't. Well, I'm going now.
Much Ana Love,
Farren |
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| Wow. I haven't updated in a long long time. Its just that life has been so wonderful and I haven't been keeping up with ana. Its just that whenever I'm happy I eat. But, when I'm sad I don't eat. I dont want to be sad and I dont want to eat. So, right now I have to find a middle ground. Any suggestions?
-Farren
Lots and lots of Ana Love to you girls. |
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| Well, for a moment there I though that Ana had left me. But, I've made a plan on how to get back on track. This week I'm cutting my cal intake to 1000 and gradually decrease it week by week. Then, when I get it low enough I'm going on a fast. Me and another fellow ana friend are going to do it together. Wish us luck! |
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| Sometimes I dont feel real. I dont feel like a person. It makes me want
to plunge my hand into my chest and see if my heart is still beating.
To see the blood flow to make sure I'm full of life.
I cant
believe my body is alive. I dont deserve it. I dont deserve to breathe.
Or maybe its just that I hate the part that hates me. And If I do, I
hate that part so much, I'd kill the part I love just to get rid of it.
I'd do anything to get ahead. Would you?
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| Hey hey hey girls! Hows it going? Well...obviously, I haven't been writing anything worth reading. Sorry about that. BUt, I've been sick and I dont feel too motivated to get on a diet again any time soon. But, I know, once I get over this sickness I'm going to be on top of it again. So, please please please leave me some comments about what I should do to get back on the track. Thanks Girls, I can't wait until I hear from you guys. |
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